How not to feel sad

Yesterday was Maal Hijrah, a new year in the Islamic calender. We didn't go anywhere, just stayed at home. Ifa was not feeling well, still vomiting every time she eats something. We figured it's food poisoning or food contamination from her swallowing too much swimming pool water while we were in Thistle Hotel PD. She appeared to be really suffering from stomach pain so I brought her to the clinic yesterday noon. The doctor said the same, food contamination and wind in her tummy.

This morning, Ifa's body temperature is still high. I think it has something to do with her not urinating yet, so we forced her to drink more plain water, something she seems to find very stressing. Alhamdulillah I have my hubby all the way with me.

My sister messaged saying that her baby Ain Damia and our little sister Aida are also having fever. I think she is feeling the pressure having to cope with the challenges alone as her hubby is away for a 3 day course. I can imagine how stressful the situation is for her.

While driving, I received a call from a staff from my previous office PKP. She was asking for information on matters too long ago and I am not able to remember. This brings me to again feel that I have been treated unfairly. I still can't shake the feeling off, though most of the time I just looked away and tried to let it pass. More than 13 years in the office, much involved in the ups and down, policy making changes etc, and I don't get anything, material nor others, signaling any kind of appreciation. And even though I am grateful for the opportunity, I was somehow forced to leave PKP and head TEA, it is definitely not something I asked for. I remember begging my MD for the promotion to take place only much later but he insisted that I moved in several weeks. I suppose this is what I get for not being frank, I was too proud to admit that ever since I was transferred, I was still very much hoping to get back to PKP. And also I think it is what I get for trying to push my luck and wanting to have too much, to enjoy the benefits from perks only PKP staff gets and getting the promotion. Allah knows best, the bad is mine. It hurts still.