Cloudy Tuesday

I am a little unhappy about one thing and much unhappy about another. Had to sleep late last night having to be to and fro in sms conversation with my sister. The topic of discussion is what causes me to be a little unhappy. I don't feel like writing on that here as it is really quite personal and very much family matter. Just to mention here that I do love my sisters, both of them at just about the same degree. Well I cant claim to love each at exactly the same degree, I think that would make me less human. And I care about them. I want them to be happy with people that make them happy. It is this one person that I feel is taking away the happiness from us, against each other. I don't like having this feeling, but it's really difficult to deny. And that person is someone who makes one of my sisters happy. In the end, you know, we all have our own reasons for doing and saying things, be them honest, sincere, with noble intentions or otherwise, Wallahua'alam. I too, would leave it at Him. Meantime, I'll try to continue my path to a good life.

But what is it that makes me much unhappy? Ahhhh, this one I can and would be delighted to share here. I sorely miss my hubby. He is based quite a 4 to 5 hours drive from Nilai. If it's less than 2 hours, I think I will actually make my way there, tomorrow, or the day after, or after, definitely before the week ends. It does feel very lonely without him in the house. I know my daughters miss him too. Albeit there is much less noise with him not around (my eldest daughter said to her sister, "at least we wont be scolded that often"), I know deep down, they all want him back. We love him for who he is, the funny baba, the "kuat membebel" baba, the "do not touch the remote when MU game is on tv" baba. That one and only baba. For this, I am so not happy. Can't wait till Deepavali then!