17 November 2012
For the first time in quite so many years (as I truly dont remember when i last did this), I am going to write something on my birthday. Happy birthday to me!
So what has been going on? Yesterdar was a tiring day. Work was beginning to feel quite challenging and less pleasant again. It was heaps of roses and tantalizing perfume wonderful just about 2 months back when I started at this new place. Wonder what all this means.
And yesterday till early today, I totally do not remember about my birthday. Yes, it has been at the back of my mind that this November my birthday will be on 17th. But truly, it just goes without me realizing that today is the day.
Yesterday, I managed to run for a few hours in the afternoon to Wangsa Maju and do my long due facial. Rushing like hell, managed to get back to office by 2.40pm. Okay, that's good. Then had lunch in the office. Then continued on the PC again. Oh yes, yesterday for no apparent reason I had two of my aromatic candles burnt, usually I only had one. Probably also I was trying to ease the difficult day that I know yesterday was going to be. What with having so much to do from the long list of assignments given by my boss before she went for few days of Deepavali leave. Oh boy, it just hit me, I am not sure whether I have blown my candles out before I left office aroung 5.50pm yesterday......heck!
I remember thinking this on my wy down in the lift, "all I want to do now is get into the car and `peace off''.....so I did. After about 15 minutes driving and away from the vicinity of UKM, I had my first stick of peace for the day. Then I began thinking, "what do I want to do next? I have several packs of nasi briyani which can be dinner for my daughters, but need to still get something for Ikmal. I'll drop by at the night market". On other days, I really would say, "dont wanna go elsewhere la! So tired, so lazy, just wanna go home and rest"....but yesterday, I remember vividly how I thought "I want to go get something nice for me and my kids from night market. It has been ages since I last went there without hubby. I'll go and buy chicken rice for Ikmal and Iesya and Uncle Bob fried chicken for the me and Along and RM2 of cakoi for Angah. So I did. "Life is short, better use the time you have doing things which will make you and people you love happy", and do something nice for myself. Will do it tomorrow. I swear this was on my mind yesterday when I decided to go to the night market right after work. Funny thing is, at that time, I had not a tiny remembrance that it was eve of my birrthday....how cool is that!
We had dinner around 8pm as usual. Then I was at the back kitchen for a peace, with rambutans just to clear the basin. Then in pundong, really feeling the boredom of not having Baba around. Wanting to call Nida my friend, and probably someone one else to update them of my new phone number, but nope....decided not to, really dont have the push. After second peace, walked in. The children were upstairs, so I lie down for a while. Feeling a tinge of headache and really exhausted. Read `Quatrain' on my tablet to kill time.
Around 9.40pm, heard Ikmal crying and making lots of noise. ....Ahh, now Ikmal is crying so gotta go/....okay, back downstairs now after breasfeeding my Darling just now. Brought him downstairs so he now joined Along watching tv. And when I was upstairs just now also, Along wished me happy birthday and gave me a blue wrapped present, probably a book.
Back to last night, Ikmal was crying and calling me so I took him, broght him to drink gripewater and took him upstairs. Let him listen to nursery rhymes on my tablet for a couple of hours, but he still didnt want to sleep. I was feeling so sleepy and tired. But set my alarm at 5am. As planned during my drive home today, I want to get up early, do some exercise and then get down to work or do some reading. Heard Baba sms but just ignored it. Ikmal was up and about playing with Iesya, I tried to lull myself to sleep with reading on my tab. Ikmal finally slept around 1am I think and me minutes afterwards, heavy with headache and extreme tiredness.
Heard the alarm, but too tired to get up. And at that time, I think it just started raining heavily. Even though I was in bed, I could somehow feel that it was refreshing rain. Moments before I think I had this dream which I now forgot, but it has been a reason for me to sleep heavily. Thank gosh finally. Yesterday night was tortourous, I barely was semi awake the whole 5 hours. Then I heard the sms ding, took it and sa Baba's sms saying "Happy Birthday mama jie".....it was 8.08am. Ohhh, then I remember that today is indeed my 40th birthday.
So what do I want to do today? I want try to not take my peace the whole day as a gift to my body.....not sure really if I can achaieve this feat, being slighly pissed off at Baba for not being home with me, I know it will be huge challenge for me not to pick up one or many peaces, but let's see if I can do it.
So what has been going on? Yesterdar was a tiring day. Work was beginning to feel quite challenging and less pleasant again. It was heaps of roses and tantalizing perfume wonderful just about 2 months back when I started at this new place. Wonder what all this means.
And yesterday till early today, I totally do not remember about my birthday. Yes, it has been at the back of my mind that this November my birthday will be on 17th. But truly, it just goes without me realizing that today is the day.
Yesterday, I managed to run for a few hours in the afternoon to Wangsa Maju and do my long due facial. Rushing like hell, managed to get back to office by 2.40pm. Okay, that's good. Then had lunch in the office. Then continued on the PC again. Oh yes, yesterday for no apparent reason I had two of my aromatic candles burnt, usually I only had one. Probably also I was trying to ease the difficult day that I know yesterday was going to be. What with having so much to do from the long list of assignments given by my boss before she went for few days of Deepavali leave. Oh boy, it just hit me, I am not sure whether I have blown my candles out before I left office aroung 5.50pm yesterday......heck!
I remember thinking this on my wy down in the lift, "all I want to do now is get into the car and `peace off''.....so I did. After about 15 minutes driving and away from the vicinity of UKM, I had my first stick of peace for the day. Then I began thinking, "what do I want to do next? I have several packs of nasi briyani which can be dinner for my daughters, but need to still get something for Ikmal. I'll drop by at the night market". On other days, I really would say, "dont wanna go elsewhere la! So tired, so lazy, just wanna go home and rest"....but yesterday, I remember vividly how I thought "I want to go get something nice for me and my kids from night market. It has been ages since I last went there without hubby. I'll go and buy chicken rice for Ikmal and Iesya and Uncle Bob fried chicken for the me and Along and RM2 of cakoi for Angah. So I did. "Life is short, better use the time you have doing things which will make you and people you love happy", and do something nice for myself. Will do it tomorrow. I swear this was on my mind yesterday when I decided to go to the night market right after work. Funny thing is, at that time, I had not a tiny remembrance that it was eve of my birrthday....how cool is that!
We had dinner around 8pm as usual. Then I was at the back kitchen for a peace, with rambutans just to clear the basin. Then in pundong, really feeling the boredom of not having Baba around. Wanting to call Nida my friend, and probably someone one else to update them of my new phone number, but nope....decided not to, really dont have the push. After second peace, walked in. The children were upstairs, so I lie down for a while. Feeling a tinge of headache and really exhausted. Read `Quatrain' on my tablet to kill time.
Around 9.40pm, heard Ikmal crying and making lots of noise. ....Ahh, now Ikmal is crying so gotta go/....okay, back downstairs now after breasfeeding my Darling just now. Brought him downstairs so he now joined Along watching tv. And when I was upstairs just now also, Along wished me happy birthday and gave me a blue wrapped present, probably a book.
Back to last night, Ikmal was crying and calling me so I took him, broght him to drink gripewater and took him upstairs. Let him listen to nursery rhymes on my tablet for a couple of hours, but he still didnt want to sleep. I was feeling so sleepy and tired. But set my alarm at 5am. As planned during my drive home today, I want to get up early, do some exercise and then get down to work or do some reading. Heard Baba sms but just ignored it. Ikmal was up and about playing with Iesya, I tried to lull myself to sleep with reading on my tab. Ikmal finally slept around 1am I think and me minutes afterwards, heavy with headache and extreme tiredness.
Heard the alarm, but too tired to get up. And at that time, I think it just started raining heavily. Even though I was in bed, I could somehow feel that it was refreshing rain. Moments before I think I had this dream which I now forgot, but it has been a reason for me to sleep heavily. Thank gosh finally. Yesterday night was tortourous, I barely was semi awake the whole 5 hours. Then I heard the sms ding, took it and sa Baba's sms saying "Happy Birthday mama jie".....it was 8.08am. Ohhh, then I remember that today is indeed my 40th birthday.
So what do I want to do today? I want try to not take my peace the whole day as a gift to my body.....not sure really if I can achaieve this feat, being slighly pissed off at Baba for not being home with me, I know it will be huge challenge for me not to pick up one or many peaces, but let's see if I can do it.
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