THIS AND THAT
It's 11am now on 31st December 2012, I am still in bed cozy under my quilt with the ceiling fan at speed number 4. My baby boy and eldest daughter are also still in the bedroom: ikmal playing " baby bus fishing" on the ipad with his kak long. The stupid courier man came around 1045 am just now, as always, should have come on saturday when I waited but made it late. Luckily Ifa is already downstairs so she had to claim the parcel. I was telling kak long just now when ikmal was still underneath my armpit breast feeding, that "he is sucking my dry, just like the vampire baby was sucking Bella dry from inside her" The Breaking Dawn part 1. Hahaha.
I was up till past 4pm this morning, the last few hours spent reading Nora Robert's novel. Just found out yesterday that someone whom I used to work with, a year younger than me, had a mild heart attack last week, in icu for couple of days, had some kind of operations I ve never heard of before and released from hospital just yesterday. Gosh he is one of those guys I really would have loved to be close to but fate has it, he couldnt find peace of heart in our previous holdings company so he left for another job just after less than 3 months. Point is, he is bloody marvelous at his work, HR maverick as I'd like to call him, definitely dont drink, dont smoke as far as I know, then how come? Heart attack at 40? Wonder the kind of chronic illness I will be experiencing with such unhealthy lifestyle I'm going with.......
While watching movie in the morning, I shared with my two elder daughters some of my darkest intimate secrets yesterday, about their dad and what he has done and about me and the kind of 'bitch' I used to be, why me and their dad used to have major arguments years before....yup I saw pearls of drops in along's eyes while Ifa as usual try to neutralize the situation by telling jokes, but I guess, I would much rather they hear it from me and sooner than later so thaT if anything happen to me suddenly, then I know they have already been told, of the kind of person I am, the love- hunger and always needing a man who can love me like Edward does Bella in the twilight series. Sure there are plenty more to tell, but I will do it one at a time I think.
So I was thinking late last night what do I want for new year resolution,and I decided " I just want to be one my children would not regret of having as their mum. "
I was up till past 4pm this morning, the last few hours spent reading Nora Robert's novel. Just found out yesterday that someone whom I used to work with, a year younger than me, had a mild heart attack last week, in icu for couple of days, had some kind of operations I ve never heard of before and released from hospital just yesterday. Gosh he is one of those guys I really would have loved to be close to but fate has it, he couldnt find peace of heart in our previous holdings company so he left for another job just after less than 3 months. Point is, he is bloody marvelous at his work, HR maverick as I'd like to call him, definitely dont drink, dont smoke as far as I know, then how come? Heart attack at 40? Wonder the kind of chronic illness I will be experiencing with such unhealthy lifestyle I'm going with.......
While watching movie in the morning, I shared with my two elder daughters some of my darkest intimate secrets yesterday, about their dad and what he has done and about me and the kind of 'bitch' I used to be, why me and their dad used to have major arguments years before....yup I saw pearls of drops in along's eyes while Ifa as usual try to neutralize the situation by telling jokes, but I guess, I would much rather they hear it from me and sooner than later so thaT if anything happen to me suddenly, then I know they have already been told, of the kind of person I am, the love- hunger and always needing a man who can love me like Edward does Bella in the twilight series. Sure there are plenty more to tell, but I will do it one at a time I think.
So I was thinking late last night what do I want for new year resolution,and I decided " I just want to be one my children would not regret of having as their mum. "
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