It's 8.8.2013 and it's Eid

Finally Eid came again, but it is really quite different this year. I truly couldn't find the excitement, nothing of this frame of mind at all appear with today's sunrise. In fact, I've been so unexcited about this year's Eid since days or week or maybe even months ago. Why? Many reasons for sure. I'm less contented with my boss, with my hubby's new job & responsibilities; this would make him sad if he knew. He is so happy with his job but I'm not. Nope, I can't say it to him though I know me being selfish have many times before make selfish remarks and acted to show my displeasure. He's got to work today. But nope, I don't really mind this part. I'm just actually less happy about him so happy about going to work. What kind of a wife am I? Right now, all I want is to hang around with him. I am down and stressed out about my weight, and my health, my quality of work, my sagging memory, my lack of patience, all those I usually blame on my boss. Huh? Stupid me! I've finished and in the middle of reading several motivation books, all of these should really push me into fully believe in my life being what and how I want it to be. I have the power to choose, I have to just continue to be better at speaking my mind and putting my points across and that U must stop sweating the small stuff. But I am still one who repeatedly feels bad about all and most. Had my car washed at Tesco just now. Three washes, one polish and one wax for a package price of RM199. It was when I was shown at the receipt that I actually realized that today is 8th of 8th of 2013.