It's been a long while

Too long ago, I wrote my last post on this blog. Why is that? No clear reasons, I just felt like I had other things to do. Others higher on the priority list. Is that tge real reason? I can't tell for sure. Maybe I was just too focused on not doing much for my soul. Maybe, I just wanted to do only tge things that really need to be done such as work which don't do much in pleasing as the days pass by, posting on books I sell for Kedai Buku Saduri, day in day out as a not fully functioning mom, dull moments as a wife and such. Maybe I just forgot.

Reading posts shared by one of my really not many friends Hanie today at https://lifeisonebigstage.wordpress.com/ I thought to myself, I've been too focussed lazying away. It's maddening sad that I seem to have lost my vigour to live meaningful life. Is this normal? Are there others like me? What have I become? Why can't I hold my positiveness? Where am I going with such lame excuses in not wanting to care two bits about living quality life?  Why do I feel more at ease about not thinking, not doing, not wanting? Why do I feel so dead and so enjoying it?

I don't have answers to those glaring curses of my life. Should I care?